It's already 4 in the morning and I know I can't get things out of my mind so easily. So I have finally decided to let the things out. I don't know whether this will ever be published or will be saved in drafts like all others but one thing was sure I needed to get over her. As the suicidal thoughts once again started to take over, I know this time I can't resist them. Top 10 suicide intriguing and depressing songs of all the time was my recent search history. We all find it funny at times: The thought of suicide and what's more amusing is our very own thought of existence! I had already witnessed tuning 10 whole superstars turning into wrinkled bud since morning and haven't slept from 34 hours I guess. Apart from the 4 hours disoriented dreams I had in the evening; everyone of which was a nightmare. There is this thing: I hated her birthdays. Yes it's 6th Oct and no day of the year can be as worse than this. Each friend of mine had wished me," ...