~~Pondering!~~ Is it too much to expect something out of unexpected? Is it too much a frill on my list? I have been feeling a bit unorchestrated, Maybe I have lost a will to live! .. I have been scared to the bones, Even thoughts of it bring back those chills! Filled with remorse for the cradles left untouched, How can regrets stay calm in the heat! .. I've been pulling the all-nighters, My eyes are heavy And so are my legs feel way-too weak! Mere thoughts just crushes my soul, Deprives me of my beliefs! .. Trust no process, That's how I have been. I'm scared to say the 'L-word'. I don't know if it's for myself or is there someone really in heed! .. I'm scared, In disbelief. Seeing myself Through your eyes, Stuck in this time loop Trapped in the dark! .. Confining the magic, Reflecting the shimmer of confetti. Makes me question myself: Every time, Everyday Even in this nick of time: Is this where I'm supposed to be at all? Or, is there something wo...